We got home yesterday from our visit. I have so many thoughts running through my head but there is a lot I can't write about. It was much harder than I thought it was going to be. It's been 5 months since we last saw everyone and dad is not good. On the first night we saw him my sister-in-law said it was a good night for him and I did see worse throughout the week. He is forgetful, his balance is off, he walks differently, his eyes look different, his smile is different. The one thing that hasn't changed though, is 7 card blind and dad giving the kids money so everyone can play (and that makes me smile).
Honestly, I just don't know where to start right now. I thought I could get some thoughts out but I just can't. What I do know is that home is my bubble and I don't want to leave it right now.
What to pray for... peace for myself. Peace and strength for my mom. For dad to know and feel that God is with him.
What I'm grateful for... safe travels, our ski day with the girls and my husband.
